Upbeat and Making Progress

Who would’ve guessed??

I’ve blogged about the youngest one.

It’s now the eldest’s turn.

I was completely taken aback the other day.

I have to give a bit of background information here to make this make sense, so bear with me please.  I must talk about my phone.  My phone and I are inseparable.  Seriously I can’t breathe without it.  I know it’s terrible.  I seem to have an addictive personality and right now it’s my phone and Dr. Pepper.  Compared to my past, I’m doing MUCH MUCH better.  One thing at a time is my motto.  So I’m always checking my phone, facebook, twitter, texts, games, etc.

So my phone vibrates the other day, nothing new, really.  When I look at my phone, it’s a text, FROM THE OLDEST.  First thing to do is to check the hubby’s phone.  Nope, there was no text on his phone from her.  I open the text, and it’s just a random thought she wanted to share.  HALLELUJAH AND PRAISE THE LORD.  I can officially say my oldest and I have a relationship.  We continued to talk for about 6-8 more texts.  It was absolutely lovely.  I tried VERY hard not to come through the texts as I was physically.  Jumping up and down, doing the happy dance.  Wow, perseverance and patience pays off.  It worked, it worked.  I love that girl more and more every day.

Thank you, Lord, for your many blessings (even when I see them as complaints and hardships!).

Now to wait on the next moment of breakthrough. . . . . .

Are you waiting . . . . cause I sure am!!

WAIT UPON THE LORD…….

Isaiah 40:31 English Standard Version
but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.

I’ve known this for quite some time.  I waited on my husband for 13 years.  Now don’t take that as you just thought it!  I was single after a very unhappy and nasty divorce for 13 years before reconnecting with my hubby.  I went through many trials and tribulations healing from that first marriage.  These are not areas I wish to revisit, at least not yet.  I got VERY close to GOD, a thing in which is easier to do without a husband in the way.  At least, that’s what I think today.  I reserve the right to change my mind at any moment! 

(Knowing me as you ALL do, you will realize I say that about EVERYTHING, just ask my husband, or my dance students.  I’ve many theories, which I’m waiting for someone to prove or disprove.  Usually I leave the disproving to me though, call it my type A-OCD [which should be CDO as to be in abc order, but that’s another and much longer post] personality.)

(Don’t you love my side notes in parenthesis, like you are my very bestest friend and would know these facts about me anyway???  Good.  I do too, this way I can pretend to actually have bestest friends that read my blog! HA!)

Okay, waiting.  I waited on Mr. Right and although not everyone would say they agreed with me.  I found Mr. Right.  He’s so right for me, it’s scary.  He forces me to be a better woman.  I’m not the kind you can force into anything, so that in itself is a miracle.  But again, that’s another post.  I think I’m also a little ADD or even ADHD.  Sorry, please trudge forward and I will do my best to do the same. 

Here is my point.

I thought the waiting was over after I found Mr. Right.

What if I was wrong? (HEAVEN FORBID! And please don’t tell my husband, that I might possibly be admitting to being wrong!)

What if waiting is a life long journey?

Because, now I’m waiting on a close and good relationship with “my girls”.  And although, we’ve made strides of progress, there is still progress to be made.  It’s like I told a student of mine.  Dance is a lifelong art form.  You can continue to learn new and different things within a step or technique.  It’s not a thing where you can learn everything and simply check it off your list.  It doesn’t work that way.  What if life is like that?  You aren’t meant to simply learn something and say, ok I got it, no more work to be done in that area.

We are consistently waiting.  Bottom line:  waiting on Jesus return to then get to spend eternity in the most beautiful place in the world with the most beautiful people we’ve ever met.

So I’m a check off my list kinda gal.  I love to make a list and then check it off.  It’s like laundry, no matter how much you do or try to keep up with; there is always more dirty laundry in the making. 

I think, and a bit afraid, that life is like that too. 

Now, do I lay down and die and say forget it, it’s not worth it.

OR

Do I say, ok list, today I’m gonna win, you may win tomorrow, but today, I put my best foot forward and try to love Jesus and the people close to me the best I can.

Well

I

Choose

The

Second

Option.

Or at least I will try!!

How about you?

What do you think?

Am I nuts?

Wait scratch that last question, would love to hear your theory on waiting!!

So . . . . . . I’m waiting!

P.S.  I know there is no such word as “bestest” but nothing else came close to expressing my feeling of “bestest”.  Grammar experts forgive me. (Which I should’ve asked at the beginning of this blog, grammar is not my strongest point!) J