Graduation

The oldest graduates TOMORROW!!  I don't want to go!!  There was some terrific trauma drama and my feelings were hurt, DEEP!!  I'm doing my best to put my best foot forward, but I've learned I do that better long distance through email or text message.  I am NOT looking forward to seeing all these people that caused me so much emotional hurt.  On top of which, the oldest will no longer be coming for the weekend visits.  It will only be the youngest.  Until this last trauma drama, I thought the oldest and I were pretty close.  I've learned through this trauma drama, that we aren't, at all.  This may be the last time we see her, except for the occasional holiday that she decides to not spend with her mom.  So I figure, I need to prepare myself, never to see her again.  I'm a bag full of tears, and we haven't even left yet.  I'm gonna need LOTS of prayers tomorrow.  Please help me get through this Lord, without contributing to the trauma drama.  Cause I can be the biggest drama queen these people have ever seen.  I'm really trying hard NOT to introduce them to her tomorrow, but LORD help me, if I'm provoked . . . . . Oh LORD help!!  On top of which, I cry at the hint of the drop of a hat.  So it's not like I can keep far enough distance from her other side of the family that they won't know I'm upset about something.  Lord, help me keep my mouth SHUT!!